Men can suffer from Peter Pan Syndrome. It’s a thing.
You are forever a big kid. You never grow up. You don’t do adult. Toys just get more expensive.
One day you realise that you are as old as your dad was when you looked up to him as a grown-up. Yet you don’t feel like a grown-up. Not yet anyway. If you were to look in the mirror then you would realise how old you are, on the outside. But on the inside? You still feel like a big kid, but with responsibilities and bills to pay. You fake adult as best as you can hoping that one day you’ll get there, but not yet, not today. Today there’s a new Lego set to build, or an online campaign to look forward to, or maybe a movie marathon with your mates and pizza.
Tomorrow, tomorrow you’ll do adult. Today you are still a lost boy.